He Took My Tumor Too

I was looking forward to my post op appointment; but, I was nervous, too. The surgeon gave me very good news! He told me (us) that in this scenario, I have had the best possible outcome! Steve (my husband) and I were elated! However, each of us (we talked about it later) noticed that the oncology nurse navigator had come in to the post op meeting with the surgeon. She's a very nice gal, but she is also a reminder of that big, horrible 'C' word. The surgeon told us that he always refers his colon cancer patients to an oncologist and that the nurse would get me set up for that appointment. My hopes were dashed! This was a reminder to me that this cancer diagnosis is a commitment to ongoing appointments (check ups) for the next five years. I really wanted it all to be behind me. I thought of Psalm 103; "Bless the Lord, Oh my soul, and forget not all His benefits; Who forgives all your iniquities, Who heals all your diseases". I thought back to a time, over two decades ago, when I had sinned against my family and against the Lord. I had repented, but had such a hard time forgiving myself. One day, while on my knees, wrestling with this, the Lord asked me if I had given this sin to Him. I told Him that I had. Then He told me that the sin was no longer mine but His. I was shocked to think of such a thing! But, when I ponder what His sacrifice on the cross truly means to me, I can accept this. He nudged me during this meditation (now during this struggle with cancer). "Have you given this to me?" He asked. I assured them that I had. "Well then, it is no longer yours, it is mine". He took my tumor, too!