Imagining Miracles

Years ago I read a book entitled (I think), "The Healing Light". I was a new Christian (became born again on March 30, 1976, so this would have probably been around that time) and I hadn't heard (that I remember) the term 'new age', in respect to the counter Christianity it's believed to portray. I listen (or have listened a time, or two) to Joel Osteen and others who some Christians refer to as 'new age', but I don't see that. If some of the things they say are taken out of context and twisted, it may seem so; just as many (most, maybe) cults are started by someone taking scripture out of context and twisting it. I was not feeling well at the time when I read this book ("The Healing Light") and I did as the author suggested, imagined that there was a healing light rising up though my body; beginning from my toes. I closed my eyes. I did that; and, I felt better. It totally could have been a mental thing; but, 'Bingo', that's where the battle is.........in the mind! So, to do this healing thing in a more biblical fashion would be to meditate on what the Bible says about healing and imagine oneself healed. That's tough; especially if someone is really sick! In order to meditate on a miracle and to make healing a real thing for me, I would have to choose God's thoughts over every single bad report (on the news, from others, etc). That is putting all of the eggs into the 'Bible Basket', so to speak! Okay; let's do that! One of the hardest things that I have had to deal with is survivor's guilt. There are so many little ones who have terminal cancer (or other life threatening diseases). There are young mothers, wives, fathers and husbands, etc. who have succumbed to the 'bully' (as a friend calls cancer). Why should I survive? There is only one reason (that matters) that I am aware of. That reason is to declare the glory of God! During one of my strong moments at the hospital (there were few), I turned to my husband and declared, "I will not die, but I will live and declare the glory of God. I know the plans that He has for me.........for us!" My husband readily agreed, held me and let me cry!